dia dah lain

1st skali, saya nak minta maaf.
satu) sebab dah lama x contact dia
dua) sebab saya tak tahu cnner nak contact dia
tiga) kehilangan fon menyulitkan keadaan
empat) saya pemalu (iyeker??)
lina) saya dan dia bersahabat lama. kami susah dan senang bersama. kami sesat dan kembali kejalan yang benar bersama(ceh!).

td saya buka fb, saje nak tgk perkembgn kengkwn. dr kwn2 tyme form 1 sampai ke mtrx, sume page saya bukak. browsing their pics and profile. everybody's changes. ada(maksud saya, ramai) yg dh x d kt Malaysia. Overseas. Tracking success rail. ada yg msh kt Malaysia. mcm saya. ada yg amek dip, bachelor, working, wutsoever. masing-masing dah ada jln hidup msg2. ada yg dah bertunang, husband-n-wife-to-be-as-they-wish, ada yg still single(like me?), ada yg sibuk mencari, tp, masing-masing ada jln hidup msg2.

klw dulu, kita declare: best fwen-dun 4get me plz-keep in touch-do reply my sms-do xtivt ur fs or fb-dun 4get our memory-ym me..yaadaa...yadaaa,
tp skrg, dey r creating a new memory...
living as their own. perfecting da shape of their life. wishing they will never forget me.
i dunno why, but suddenly i miss her. she used to be sum1 so speacial. very special. i dunno whether the word 'used to' is suitable or not, but she's still so special.

we both changes in our own way. in our own style. i manage to make myself better evet hough it is not so perfect. and she manage it too. in a better way..

missed her. dunno why. suddenly a tragic feeling flowing out of my chest. making my heart burst like hell. making my head suddenly full with our school memory. those kids and child memory. those sweet memory of us. it makes my eyes dry with tears that i guess never ever cry bcz of her.

and now I'm crying bcz of her. she's changes into a better person. so much better that it makes me relieve.

wish her reading diz. understand it by herself. what makes her so special in my life...
dear-i miss u!!