I Need It...

I prefer stands here...waiting,
Rather than looking at the empty space...watching,
Unvariable spots, Unvariable things,
That I mistakenly took,
Pierce my heart apart...

I can only do nothing...breathing,
Like I was breathing in a deep cold water,
With sands approaching, With fish avoiding,
That I wish would never leave,
Make me alone behind...

What should I say,
What should I think,
What should I do,
What brings me untill here...
Nobody's answering me..

Ringing the bell of my heart,
Makes my brain react,
Even a symphony,
Would make my nerve forget,
Dark memories about being held,
Down into the black world,
Deep into the thin hole,
That I wish,
I was never ever been there...

It make my eyes remember;
"Even if you forget the past, the past will never forget you"